A year ago, I was a mess. Overweight, relied on junk food and games too much. Binged watch YouTube the whole day and missed sleep. Didn’t know what to do with my life. Finished uni, and I had no ambition to work. Above all, my health issues were making me miserable.
The miserableness gave me panic attacks. I felt myself slowly drifting away from everything. I didn’t do anything, didn’t care about anything. I was depressed.
I often thought to myself that I am a very lucky person. I don’t live in a 3rd world country, I don’t worry about food on my table and a roof above my head. I shouldn’t be depressed because people have it worse. But this thought does nothing to help with depression.
So one day, everything changed. It was the afternoon. I never unnoticed that my window had a nice view. But that day, I saw my neighbors outdoors. For some reason, I had the urge to go out. I put my sneakers on, and just went out for a walk.
15 min. 30 min, 45 min, before I knew it, 1 whole hour flew by. Sweating and tired, I was strangely calm at the end. I realized that I was able to organize the very thoughts that used to overwhelm me while walking.
I went home and wrote down my thoughts, which included everything I needed to do, from chores to dreams to aspirations.
One year later, I achieved 80% on that list and am still working consistently to reach my goals.